I'm feeling weak
Weak to my bones
And there's nothing I can do to shake it off
Is this the end
Of what I thought
Would be all of life's beauty
Your words and your smile can brighten up my day
But our future here's at stake
Always knew that it would be us against the world
But us against ourselves is something we can't seem to figure out
We can work around it and we can try to hide it
And we can convince ourselves that this will be okay
In reality and in our hearts
We know this wasn't how it was suppose to play
The perfection of the unknown future will always be unknown
Our naive thoughts and dreams of the past will be buried
But as they say when a door closes others open
And that's all there is to say
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
I'll Hold My Breath
Guess everything's about time... it all needs time.
"Is it naive to make plans, that seem, so far away.." - Sleeping With Sirens
I mean I guess so right? Considering you don't even know how the future will come out to be... hell we don't even know how the next second of our life will be sometimes.
The time of the future will always be so unpredictable. No matter how much you "know" what will happen you really don't know what the outcomes may be.
Still... maybe it's not so much as naive to be making plans for the future. Obviously most people, since their young in school, want to be able to go to college and make a living; but to live it to the fullest extend and be... happy. What else are you suppose to do when you're young that way and watch all those movies of people going off to college and living on their own having a grand ole' time... till reality really hits of course.
The time between now and the rest of my life is a long ways away... the time I even get to be with the one I plan on spending this time with is a long ways away..
Things could change... people always change.. why it can't all just stay the same? Because thats life.
Plan for the future but don't live in it cause its completely unpredictable... not saying it would be a very good thing if this happened but you could possibly be dead by this time tomorrow. Then again.. you could also hit the lottery and become richer than Bill Gates. (yah.. no)
It all needs time... just live it.
Friday, April 6, 2012
Understanding What We've Grown To Be
Is it okay to just want to be left alone? Is it okay to want to run away from all the pain and suffering and just be who I choose to be? Is it wrong to want a life where I don't have to fake a smile saying everything is ok just to get people off my back?
For once, music has no advice for me. For once, I can sit for hours and hours just thinking about leaving this all behind with no problem. For once, I hate who I am and where I've come from.
There's a life out there where I could be strong, encouraged, somewhat independent but also able to fall without being scared of not being caught. But where exactly is that life..? Many moons, many breaths, and many years just out of reach for now.
They say to never run and to face your problems and fears... well maybe I'm just not strong enough to fight against this because of the fact that I've been fighting so long for myself to stay sane. And all those other times no matter how hard I fought... I lost. And those other times no matter how hard I cried and hoped... nothing became any better. Never was there any other way out then to give in.
I would never wish this upon anyone and never will I make someone feel these feelings like my own loved ones have done to me.
For once, music has no advice for me. For once, I can sit for hours and hours just thinking about leaving this all behind with no problem. For once, I hate who I am and where I've come from.
There's a life out there where I could be strong, encouraged, somewhat independent but also able to fall without being scared of not being caught. But where exactly is that life..? Many moons, many breaths, and many years just out of reach for now.
They say to never run and to face your problems and fears... well maybe I'm just not strong enough to fight against this because of the fact that I've been fighting so long for myself to stay sane. And all those other times no matter how hard I fought... I lost. And those other times no matter how hard I cried and hoped... nothing became any better. Never was there any other way out then to give in.
I would never wish this upon anyone and never will I make someone feel these feelings like my own loved ones have done to me.
Thursday, April 5, 2012
Kiss The Rain
Sometimes.. love is rough. Sometimes... love is gentle. And sometimes it's just ignorant and innocent.
You love once, you either do or you don't there will never be a lukewarm love. Its beautiful till you throw it around and make it rest where it simply will never belong.
When you find love, you know. It's not a mystery, you feel it in your heart whether you actually see it or not. It makes your eyes sparkle and gives your heart hope. And it's the most welcoming and warm feeling you will ever feel.
People say they "fall in love". For me.. love doesn't make me 'fall' it makes me rise above all else, it makes me strong, and it makes me know my purpose in life.
Like a beautiful melody it runs endlessly all day and night through my head. Running through my bones, I live hopelessly in love. It's not something you can just get over with a bowl of ice cream, with words of hate, and with tears. True love never ends. If you let it go, and it was meant to be yours, it'll always find it's way right back to you.
Love... whether it's 4600 miles away or right by your side... whether it's waiting for you in the near future... it's love nonetheless. Beautiful, graceful, passionate love. Everyone needs love to live and it'll always find its way right to your front door, knocking and waiting for you to accept it instead of pushing it away because its not what you thought it would be.
Open your mind, open your heart, walk in love.
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Stiff Upper Lip.. Carry On... Chin Up
Late nights... up thinking about life and how you've affected the ones around you.
Recently I've been enjoying this manga I've found in my school library. *SCORE* Called the Sand Chronicles. Depressing beginning and probably a not so happy ending. (Haven't finished it yet) In the story the girl talks about this hour glass, and how the top of it is the future, the middle of it is the present, and the bottom of it is the past. As each sand particle falls so does a second of your life that has become from the future to the present to the past.
Things are tough sometimes I know, they've been pretty tough for me also but why mope around and cry these sad tears and let this life slip away. Why not make the past a happy one to remember in a dream at night instead of a nightmare waiting to come one of these days? These bad moments in life are just waiting to catch you off guard and pounce making everything in your world seem as if it doesn't matter or it's pointless. But think of it like your life was in an hourglass. Times passing by as I type this, times passing by every time you cry and sob, times passing by with every single breath you take and it's all becoming the past. And whats bad about it is that you can never really let go and totally forget about your past. Something can always come up to remind you of the bad or even the good but its your past that's never going to leave you nonetheless.
Why just stand by and watch it all go, making your past dull and pointless? Make it something you want to remember. Make it another story for your future grandchildren. Make it something that you will love to cherish and hold on to forever no matter how hard the situation may be since you're going to have to hold on to it anyways.
In times of darkness be the light, in times of happiness live your life.
Recently I've been enjoying this manga I've found in my school library. *SCORE* Called the Sand Chronicles. Depressing beginning and probably a not so happy ending. (Haven't finished it yet) In the story the girl talks about this hour glass, and how the top of it is the future, the middle of it is the present, and the bottom of it is the past. As each sand particle falls so does a second of your life that has become from the future to the present to the past.
Things are tough sometimes I know, they've been pretty tough for me also but why mope around and cry these sad tears and let this life slip away. Why not make the past a happy one to remember in a dream at night instead of a nightmare waiting to come one of these days? These bad moments in life are just waiting to catch you off guard and pounce making everything in your world seem as if it doesn't matter or it's pointless. But think of it like your life was in an hourglass. Times passing by as I type this, times passing by every time you cry and sob, times passing by with every single breath you take and it's all becoming the past. And whats bad about it is that you can never really let go and totally forget about your past. Something can always come up to remind you of the bad or even the good but its your past that's never going to leave you nonetheless.
Why just stand by and watch it all go, making your past dull and pointless? Make it something you want to remember. Make it another story for your future grandchildren. Make it something that you will love to cherish and hold on to forever no matter how hard the situation may be since you're going to have to hold on to it anyways.
In times of darkness be the light, in times of happiness live your life.
Friday, February 17, 2012
You Be The Anchor That Keeps My Feet On The Ground, I'll Be The Wings That Keep Your Heart In The Clouds
Has there ever been that moment in life that you realize will change everything from that point and on?
That one moment when you realize yourself changing every aspect of your life for the good or the worst.
These moments could be of love, of war, of tragedy, of happiness, but nevertheless impacting your life no matter how much you want it to or not.
Last summer, I learned what these moments were like for myself. I realized how real they were, and that when people told me about experiencing these moments, their words weren't just empty; everything they said to describe these feelings was the reality of life. Its nothing like a story you just read in a book or a situation you see in a movie, it's so much more and yet, we can over look them all in a blink of an eye.
I lost a person I cared for and found out through one text... it's made me grow stronger
I fell in love with a boy just from one conversation... it gave me hope
I met a life long best friend from one simple laugh together... it gave me happiness
Realizing how important these moments of my life are... it made me appreciate life
Everyone has these moments that impact the rest of their life and sometimes we just move too fast to acknowledge them. "Stop and smell the roses" like they say. Life isn't merely just day in and day out, the smallest things could effect everything. Slow down and take it in, everything is much more beautiful through eyes that take time to observe.
Last summer, I learned what these moments were like for myself. I realized how real they were, and that when people told me about experiencing these moments, their words weren't just empty; everything they said to describe these feelings was the reality of life. Its nothing like a story you just read in a book or a situation you see in a movie, it's so much more and yet, we can over look them all in a blink of an eye.
I lost a person I cared for and found out through one text... it's made me grow stronger
I fell in love with a boy just from one conversation... it gave me hope
I met a life long best friend from one simple laugh together... it gave me happiness
Realizing how important these moments of my life are... it made me appreciate life
Everyone has these moments that impact the rest of their life and sometimes we just move too fast to acknowledge them. "Stop and smell the roses" like they say. Life isn't merely just day in and day out, the smallest things could effect everything. Slow down and take it in, everything is much more beautiful through eyes that take time to observe.
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Well this is a first...
What do people even say here?
Ohh i get it... im suppose to rant about my random experiences in life and you're suppose to read about them.
Well... lets start this over...
Hello stalker or should i say fellow stalker. I mean... i read other peoples blogs too so... we're all just a bunch of stalkers here now aren't we? (Marko.. if you're reading this... hayy creeperr) xD
Well anyways.. i don't really know how to do this........
My life is pretty boring.. keep reading tho.. shit happens.
Animes kool...
I have ADHD..
Bye
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